i dont know.

i was supposed to do up my resume, but now its 1030 and i feel so tired, emotionally tired to do anything right now.

I feel so drained.

I have nothing to live for right now; other than work and home, i am not going anywhere

and its because i dont find anything interesting anymore

i dont wish to interact with anyone. i guess thats what doing a job that you do not like gets you.

Every second, every day just becomes a drag and torture to me now.

i dont know what got me to this too.

i just know i am so tired from this race and how i wish, how i wish and sincerely pray that i can just leave this place.

But i know that i cant. i really cannot make myself do it without having find another job.

I am really having an internal struggle within myself.

everyday its just a struggle, with nothing to look forward to.

I hate this and i hate myself for this

Getting wrongfully accused of self isolation and whatever nonsense that people can come up with

i know no one can really be there to listen and no one will truly understand how i feel.

How am i going to face my parents when i feel ashamed of myself?

I really need to get myself up.

All the grievances at work; nothing has made me feel so much like running away before.

I cant get over my own barrier, i cant treat someone like a statistic.

I really cannot do this, i really cannot.

i am so tired; just so tired. i need a break from this.